Due to surgery recovery, I am sliding into Summer Sloth Syndrome. Resistance is futile. I am done.
Case in point? Two nights in a row I have been up until 2:30 a.m. watching Law and Order SVU reruns. Well, it’s either that or one of the freakish reality shows on TLC or A&E.
Hopefully, this week will turn the tide. Yesterday, I got out for a bit on my own for the first time. I met Shawn for lunch at Chuy’s. We had a good long chat about life, love and other mysteries. Her husband is having a gastric sleeve surgery today, so I’ll head out in a bit to sit with her (because I’m incredibly entertaining, you know). I also went up to church to watch the kiddos do their summer musical. I was super proud of everyone involved in the production and it was great to see some of my favorite people also.
By the time the musical was over, however, I felt puffy like P. Diddy Combs and I knew I needed to get home and lie down. If I thought I busted a suture line before, I REALLY thought I was about to burst last night. It was a good reminder that I might feel like going and doing, but I still need to take it easy for healing’s sake. It was also a good reminder that my body shape is not settled. I was pretty freaked about the fact that none of my pants will button at the moment. Well, actually they WILL button, but it feels like a noose around my waist. Over the next few weeks, surely I will be back into my work appropriate pants!
What else is going on this week? Tomorrow I’ll be getting together with Kaitlin. We decided to try bulk cooking together and trade out half of the results. I am ready to get back in the kitchen and be creative. I’ll be making beer braised chicken thighs that will hopefully make any Texan proud. On Wednesday, I’ll be back in choir practice. Thursday and Friday are questionable, but I’m hoping to get some people together for SOMETHING. Saturday is my BBGC support group (oh yeah, I need to do some planning I guess). Sunday is our World Music oriented worship service and a get together for a friend. And then… Next Monday?
I turn the big 33. I guess I am ready for it? 32 has been a mix of good and not so good. I suspect 33 will be same. I am experiencing some emotional and psychological things as a post-op that I once believed I had dodged a bullet on. Well, it just is not true. I guess I’m a late bloomer? Statistics point to most of these changes in friendships and other relationships happening within the first two years. It really has hit me like a ton of bricks in the last little while, because I believed that almost all my relationships were on solid ground. I now am finding this not to be so. I don’t know where to start, really. I guess I am just about ready to go back to counseling for help! I believe all weight loss surgery patients should be in mandatory counseling with some kind of regularity during the first two years. I didn’t do that and I think all I did is sweep my dirt under the rug. Now guess what? The rug is filthy and I need to clean it up.
Another anniversary is coming up. I mark 10 years of living in Texas in just a few weeks. It’s hard to believe that the girl who really was kicking and screaming about moving back to Tennessee is now perfectly content to stay in Texas and loves the Lone Star State. If airfare to Tennessee would become more affordable, it would be perfection.










































